Thoughts and words from Emma

***Updated photos at the end of post.....


Hi everybody. I am doing pretty well. I am just getting past my sleepy/head achy stage of my chemo round. So when I go back to school I will be in tip-top shape:) School is going awesome!! I love my teacher. He explains things very well and digs deeper into the subject. I am soooooo exited that I only have two chemos left!!  We have two mini dachshunds. We have a 1 year old boy Hank and a 4 year old girl Ellie.  Ellie is pregnant! Like the rest of my family I am waiting. . . and waiting for the puppies to come. She is absolutely huge!! We think she will have three-four puppies. My mom and dad say we can't keep any. They think three dogs is enough so we will find good homes for them. I have been measuring Ellie's belly and it is growing! I think she is at her max which is 23 1/2 inches round.

Ellie and Hank sleeping

 

School is going to be here sooner then we know, but I am VERY thankful that I have no HOMEWORK!! On New Year's Eve my family and I were brainstorming on what we wanted to do in the new year. My ideas were: read one book a month, fix "the 70" so I can ride it ( which is a motorcycle), and join swim team. I also want to go back to soccer and dance. . . FINALLY! I know that is kinda a long list but this year I have missed some things I love to do! We have a lot of trips and tasks ahead of us in the new year,  but at the same time  FULL of fun!!

Hank loves Ellie

Emma Kait 

Ellie with her puppies

Eight puppies total arrived Friday 1-6-11 all healthy and strong after 12 hours of labor!

Reflections

I sit in our decorated and glowing living room with white Christmas lights sparkling up our tree and I can't help but reflect on what 2011 brought to our family.  Friends and family's Christmas cards are arriving in the mailbox and as I sat at the computer ordering our own today, I was flooded with images and emotions from our very full and very hard and very blessed beyond imagination year. 

We had an very unwelcome visitor to our life.  One that we could not plan for or understand, but we were met with people around us, the love to carry us and the strength beyond understanding.

I read words today from another blog that resonated with my heart, and I pray finds roots in Emma's soul...

"It isn’t about the cancer, it isn’t about what it has the ability to do to our bodies, it isn’t about the treatments or the part of us it takes away; its about the journey. Its about rediscovering the parts of yourself that you never ever knew or dreamed existed, and giving them room to grow and room to take flight. Its about seeing life through cancers eyes and being better because of it, being more whole and more alive despite it....I am still a daughter. I am still a daughter of the King. I am still the same that I was before I found out that I had cancer, just a little more a lot more mature and a heck of a lot less naive. I still have the same heart, the same dreams, the same desires. I am still me, cancer can't take that away.



It only made me stronger."


 -especiallyheather.com

I know this year of treatment has has irreversible effects on Emma.  I am praying that those experiences are for her to stand on as she grows into the girl and woman God created her to be.  He knew this journey would be a part of her forever, and the challenges that she has had, the understanding that she has gained, the power of love that has been shown to her can only be for her good.  She is stronger.

She triumphantly faced chemo round #12 last week.  Tonight is her last dose of prednisone and 6MP for this round.  She came home and finished her homework and went to school the next day after chemo and took a science and math test.  She is my hero.

Chemo round #13 is set for December 28....then only two left.  We are getting there.  The end is in sight.

Fun

I was scrolling through the last few weeks of family pictures in preparation for a new blog post and realized that Jon labeled the folders on the computer as simply "fun".  This is a small word that has big meaning for us this year.  The last few weeks have been filled with just that....fun.  We have been breathing easier and smiling more and feeling lighter on our feet.  The fact that the end of treatment is in sight might be part of that feeling for us, but also, I think that God has been giving us repeated moments of life to savor and appreciate and relax.  Life is not all hard, all dark, all scary.  Moments of that, yes......but more times of life and light and love.  God is all about that, and we notice it and appreciate it more than ever. 

In October and so far in November we've celebrated Joseph's soccer team winning their first ever championship in a soccer tournament.....Ben and Jon visited Legoland for a belated birthday trip from last February......Had cousins visit from LA.....Participated in the Light the Night Walk with good friends.......Halloween fun with the family......Joseph turned 13!!!.....Witnessed our niece Grace get dedicated to God and celebrated with Jon's sister Anissa and her husband Chris.....Jon and Rebecca escaped life for a few days and travelled to Southern California to visit our college campus and see some friends as well as slip in a trip to the beach in Santa Monica and a day at Disneyland.......and Emma Kait reached round 10 of chemotherapy and had high counts the rest of the month.

1st Place U-13 boys  Davis Legacy Cup

The "Auburn Boys"

Boys day at Legoland

Light the Night

A Knight, a Butterfly Princess and a Trash Can

Chris, Anissa and Baby Grace

Joseph's 13th birthday

Point Loma.....memories

Love

Hope

Joy

All fun, all smiles and all love.

Next Wednesday Emma enters round #11 and we are looking forward to the holidays as we gather with family in thanks and celebrate the birth of Jesus and to be filled with more hope, more love and more joy.  We are getting through this, and it's been full of blessings.

Together

 

Walk with Emma Kait was on October 1, and I'm just now able to post about it on October 20, not because of Emma's illness, not because of lack of motivation to share the beautiful pictures of that day, but because of the shear busyness of life.....thankfully our life that resembles our old life....soccer, piano, school projects, girl scouts, more soccer, house and yard work.....with only a few reminders that we are still dealing with effects and treatment of Lymphoma.  Emma has not missed a single day of school yet this year!  We celebrate and are so thankful for her continued strength and health in the midst of chemotherapy and steroids.  I pick her up every Wednesday at lunchtime and we drive to the clinic for either her weekly blood test or chemo (every 21 days).  She loves school and it's so hard to take her away, but each time we drive the stretch of freeway down to Sacramento, I'm thankful we are not rushing her down there with a fever or worse.  It's such a blessing that we have not stepped foot in the hospital since June!  We were at the clinic yesterday and her counts were 1000, and we will return next week for round #10!

As I write this post, I have sitting on my kitchen table, two packages that I will put in the mail today.....one addressed to the Young Family and one addressed to the Lohner Family.  We are so pleased and grateful to be able to help both families financially with the proceeds from Emma's Walk.  Each family is receiving a check and some t-shirts from the walk.  With your help, over $1200 dollars were raised and we split those funds between the two families and donated $200 to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society for the Light the Night Walk this upcoming Saturday.  We could not have done it without you....in fact you, our friends, family and new friends are what have kept us going this past almost 9 months.....you promised to stand by us, love us and support us and you have.  We have walked this far in our journey.....together.  We will never be the same and we will never forget.  Thank you!

Here are some photos of the day as well as links to two other generous photographers who captured images for us.  Thank you Charlotte and Mr. Ryan.

Walk with Emma Kait (slide show) from Charlottle

Donahue Photography  (any photo can be downloaded for free from this site)  Thank you Mr. Ryan!

An finally, thank you a million times over to my generous and beautiful friend Jen with her company J and J Sports Productions, who organized, planned for, and executed the amazing day.  We cannot thank you enough!  

Jacob

Jacob

Here is the other brave soul we would like to help from Walking with Emma Kait.....this is Jacob.  We've known Jacob for many years from church, have witnessed him playing capture the flag with Joseph at youth group events, have heard him play the violin beautifully at a Christmas Eve service and have loved their family in our close knit community.  It was heartbreaking to hear of his diagnosis of severe Aplastic Anemia and we spent many months praying for his health and healing.  We ran into his mom Teresa at one of our first surgery appointments at Sutter, before we knew....before we switched over to the oncology side of the office.  The two sign-in windows are a mere 3 feet apart in the clinic yet worlds apart in reality for us. 

Our first night in the hospital, I was shell-shocked, stunned, unable to form rational thoughts or plans, nor even begin to think about needs other that Emma and her diagnosis and Teresa gave me a gift.  She gave me her sleeping pad to add to the very hard hospital bed/chair that parents are given to sleep in the corner of their child's room.  She had been there for many nights and knew what could help me at least attempt a better night's sleep.  It was a small token of love and care that will forever remind me that even the little gestures can mean the world to a person in pain or grief or worry.  Thank you Teresa. 

After many months of declining heath, Jacob received a bone marrow transplant on June 16, 2011.  He is such a brave kid who demonstrated fearless optimism to Emma each time he would say hi to her on the pediatric oncology floor, in the playroom at the hospital, or plopping down on her hospital bed to compare new apps for their iPads while petting the hospital therapy dog.

Jacob, Emma and Hazel the dog

Here is more of Jacob's story and the link to his blog HERE

Jacob, age 15, has aplastic anemia. 

 

On July 6, 2010, Jacob was diagnosed with severe aplastic anemia, a potentially fatal condition in which his body’s bone marrow does not produce enough new blood cells. Doctors at UCSF have determined  that a bone marrow transplant was critical for Jacob to live a long and healthy life. He has undergone two different types of chemotherapy to wipe out his damaged bone marrow, followed by a transplant. Jacob and his mother are staying San Francisco, near the hospital for six to seven months.

Jacob lives in Lincoln, California with his mother and sister. Jacob loves fishing, swimming, and skateboarding. One of his true passions is riding dirt bikes and he holds an American Bicycle Association BMX card. When not enjoying these outdoor activities, he plays the violin, trumpet, and flute.

Jacob has many months of healing and recovery ahead, and his mom Teresa has had several medical challenges of her own lately.  We are so honored to be able to offer some relief, just as Teresa offered it to me that night of February 16, 2011.

Jacob was admitted back into the hospital for a fever yesterday.  We are praying for you Jacob. 

Little Emma

Emma Jaine

Friends, we'd like you to meet Emma Jaine...or as we refer to her as "Little Emma".  We met her family on the evening when we were admitted after hearing that afternoon that Emma Kait had cancer.  I blogged about meeting Emma and her family in one of the first postings.  You can read about it HERE.

We have stayed in contact with this family and often run into them at our appointments at the clinic.  We've been hospitalized several times at the same time, but unfortunately we've never been able to share a room together.....maybe next time?

We were so touched by this strong family.  Our Emma loves to see Little Emma's name on the sign in sheet at the clinic and laughs at the memory of Little Emma singing at the top of her lungs to the music from Mama Mia from the next door exam room.

We knew right away that we wanted to help this family with some of the proceeds from Emma's Walk as they have many medical expenses and extra testing to pay for during Little Emma's 3 year journey.

Here is more about her story and here is a link to her Carepages site:  EmmaJaine 
(you can search for her page with her name EmmaJaine with no spaces)

Emma Jaine's Story

written by Emma Jaine's Mom...

Emma is an absolutely amazing & perfect little girl who is battling against T-Cell Leukemia. Emma had a cold as many other children get regularly. We noticed that her breating was a little irregular and went to the pediatrician to be checked out. We were sent to the hospital for tests as the pediatrician thought Emma had pnemonia. We there discovered that her white blood cell count was nearly 78,000 with 15,000 being average... and further testing concluded the unfortunate diagnosis of Leukemia. We plan on staying positive and keeping all the faith that we are going to triumph over the disease and watch Emma go to her first day of kindergarten, her first date, graduating high school, getting married, having children and discovering the world in her own way! She is a fighter and will beat this! Emma is such a strong and feisty little girl and is fighting hard against this monster of a disease. She has had two doses of chemo and many, many doses of both steroids and antibiotics and has responded amazingly to them. We have a long & challenging 3 years ahead of us with the first year being the most critical and will destroy over 99% of the white blood cells. Unfortunatly the chemo doesn't simply destroy the nasty bad white blood cells but also kills off the good productive white blood cells as well. This completely wipes out her body's natural defense against infections and we will need to be more than extremely careful to keep germs away from her. We will be as preventitive as we possibly are able to. Emma and the family can use all the prayers we can get! We pray for Emma's body to fight off any possible infection and we pray that she is able to get rid of the immature destructive white cells and create healthy white blood cells. We pray that she responds amazingly to the treatments and help get her little body healthy once again. She is a happy, spunky little girl who DEFINITELY knows what she does and does not like. She is super independent and loves to do things on her own without help from mom and dad. She is also very vociferous and will let us know what wants and what she does not. She loves to color and loves stickers even more. She loves playing with her big sister Chloe and being adored by her big brother Jonah. She loves singing songs, reading books & playing outside. Emma's favorite movies at the moment are Monsters Inc. and Princess & the Frog. Emma's favorite foods are cheetos, pizza & m&m's.

We are so excited to be able to share with Emma and her family.  You can see why they are so very special to us.  We are in this fight together which started on the same day with our beautiful blond daughters with the common name.....EMMA.  

Giving Back

You know when something doesn't sit quite right in your soul....there is a stirring....a call to action.....a nudging of the Holy Spirit asking you to do something, but you are not quite sure what that something is, but when you finally realize it, your soul is at peace again and the unanswerable questions are solved? 

That's kind of how it's been for me the past few weeks.  I've realized that my heart has been hearing it, but my brain has taken a few weeks to catch up. 

The Walking with Emma Kait benefit walk/run is approaching on Oct 1 and there was something about the planning that was not quite finished, I just didn't realize it.  Our dear friend Jen, has been working in the background, planning, organizing, asking for volunteers, ordering number badges and t-shirts.  She is working tirelessly on our behalf to help in the celebration of Emma's half way point of treatment.  Many of you have already signed up to walk or run or serve as a volunteer.  We thank you so much for your support. 

There is more that this day needs to stand for.....a giving back.....a paying it forward.....a greater good than our own benefit.  This day will be a day to raise money for others in this fight.  We have been touched personally and truly felt the weight of what a cancer diagnosis does to kids and their families.  We have smiled with, cried with, hugged and waved at many families in the Oncology department at Sutter Memorial hospital and beyond.  We would like to take this opportunity, with many generous friends and family, to raise funds to help those families who are on a longer journey than our own, with more hills to climb and harder packs to carry. 

We would like to donate the proceeds from the Walk with Emma Kait to some of the families that have been fellow travelers with us, as well as donate to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society for research.  This will be an opportunity to share with others and hopefully lift some of their burden as well as help in the fight for more research on treatment and cures for this disease.  We have a few families in mind, but would like to get permission to share their stories on our blog.  Emma and I are also walking in memory of Max Herlehy at the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's Light the Night Walk on October 22 to help raise money to fight blood cancers. After a 6 ½-year struggle with acute lymphoblastic leukemia, 9-year-old Max lost his battle with cancer in May.  Please visit our team's homepage for more information.  Mercy's Team Max 

Max

We have been so generously blessed by support during Emma's journey.  We have been touched by your cards, letters, financial support, gift cards, meals, offers to transport kids.....the list goes on.  We would be honored to be able to help others in the same way with the proceeds from Emma's Walk.  We don't know how much will be raised, but we can't wait to donate it to others.  We thank you a million times over. 

Maybe, just maybe, this can become an annual event.....marking a very hard time in our life......celebrating the good that can come from this kind of a journey......and a rallying of support for others that will be forced to walk in our same shoes in the future, but can be helped along the way. 

Thank you supporters. 

-Rebecca