Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Emotional Weight

This has been a hard week for us emotionally.  The new "normal" is sinking in and taking hold.  It's hard to breath sometimes under the weight of it all.  It's hard to function and it's especially hard to plan.  We are trying to live in the moment, but those moments can be scary and raw and hurtful.  They can test your patience and resolve.  They challenge my mothering skills to the core and unfortunately those skills crumble and fail more times than I want.  I listened to the sermon from our pastor on Sunday which described so vividly how I've been feeling lately.  Please listen if you would like.

Sermon "Chaos" by Nathan Oates, Emmaus Church Community

I find comfort in the fact that I am walking each moment with a Savior who knows my pain and knows the end of the journey.  I am but an untrained, out of shape athlete who has just been thrust into the marathon of her life and I'm just at mile 2 and I have so much left to run.  Praying for strength, resolve and grit.


-Rebecca

9 comments:

  1. I'm praying with you, Honey, in these hard hard days.

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  2. Praying for you all...haven't taken off my Emma Kait bracelet since you handed it to me and think of her and pray for your family often. You may be at mile 2 of a marathon but you have someone to help you and carry you and give you strength when you most need it. I can't even begin to imagine how hard this is for you as a mom, but every time I see pictures of you with your sweet Emma Kait I'm blown away by your amazing smile and positive attitude and think how lucky she is to have a mom like you there for her every step of the way. You're *amazing* and I'm sure I'm not the only one humbled by your strength and grace under pressure. Keep smiling...and in the meantime I'm off to find a good Mexican food recipe for you guys :)

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  3. Rebecca,

    During the difficult times, know and rely on the FACT that there are many, many people carrying you all. Much love to you all.
    Niamh

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  4. Praying for you... We all stand amazed at what an incredible woman, wife and mother you are, but on the inside, I know you have to be EXHAUSTED and ready for someone else to do the "running".

    We lift you up, Rebecca. We lift ALL of you up every day. We are ready to do the running right along with you. Love you, friend.

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  5. Rebecca, My heart aches for your family. As I read the blogs, I experience the roller coaster of your life in brief snippits. I just went to Wells Fargo yesterday to deposit what Lily raised for Emma Kait. As a mother of a daughter who has become so passionately involved in interceding for Emma Kait, I have found myself being called to do the same for you. We all have days where the smallest thing can trigger a less than motherly response and at this time, you don't have any small things. Allow yourself the same grace, compassion, and forgiveness you afford those around you. God wants to gather you in under his wing for a place where you can rest, warm up, and feel protected; just like a mother hen does with her chicks. When we are weak, He is strong. Isn't it good to know that our times of weakness given to God end up being more powerful than the ones we handle on our own? Praise the Lord!

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  6. Rebecca, I pray for your family daily. Today I am asking for HIs grace that exceeds all measure. I pray for HIs grace that exceeds our human-ness and covers us even in our weakest and most tired moments. Keep leaning into our Savior. We love you,

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  8. as i read your words these are the words that i hear God whispering to you...
    "come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and i will give you rest...my yoke is easy and my burden is light"
    "they that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall rise up with wings as eagles. they will run and not grow faint,they will walk and not grow weary"
    iloveyou

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  9. We love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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