So Disappointed

Emma has been struggling with fevers the last few days, and we've visited the clinic two days in a row for blood work and IV antibiotics, but this morning at the clinic her ANC was below 500 meaning she was severely neutropenic and at high risk for infection or illness and when we went home her fever returned, so we had to go to the hospital this evening and be admitted.  We don't know how long this stay will be, but she is SO SAD at the thought of missing her Bald is Beautiful event on Sunday.  She was so upset at home when she found out we had to go to the hospital that she yelled and screamed she didn't want to go and then vomitted from being so upset.

I was at a loss for words on how to console her.  I knew getting admitted meant that we were probably stuck at the hospital for 3 days at least.  I knew she had to have her port accessed for the third time in 48 hours.  I knew that we are expecting over 650 people to attend and support her with their love at her BBQ, and they would also be disappointed that she could not attend.  I knew this fever was a reason for more worry and concern.  I know I can not change any of it. 

I am sorry, this post is so depressing....it's our reality right now.

I am praying for quick resolution of the fevers and I cautiously hope that there is a chance she might be able to be released by Sunday, but I doubt that will turn out to be the case.  I am praying for her spirit to be comforted in spite of this huge change of plans.  I am praying I don't fall into bitterness at the unfairness of this situation for Emma.  I am wishing things were different.

Thank you for supporting us.  Thank you for attending her event....even if the guest of honor has to see it in pictures.

-Rebecca